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  He was the only man she’d ever been with, but from the experiences, she’d long ago determined that sex was highly overrated. When Ryan brought up the subject of marriage, Michelle had fled from that relationship. No way was she going to suffer through a lifetime of boring sex and faked orgasms. She’d rather stay single.

  Well, that was until she met this man who made her body throb from just thinking about him. “I’ll go change my shirt.” She would have to change her panties, too. They were soaked.

  She noticed the muscles in Erik’s jaws tighten as he got up from the sofa. He came and stood next to her, looking down with open desire in his gold-flecked eyes. She heard the long deep intake of air into his lungs before he strolled out of the room. He hadn’t touched her, but he’d left his mark on her, nonetheless.

  Michelle’s body quivered as she watched Erik walk away from her. She could smell the desire in him. He wanted her just as much as she wanted him, but in his book, it was unethical to have a sexual liaison with his daughter’s nanny.

  Besides, the man was still in love with his dead wife. She wasn’t competing with that.

  Michelle was sitting on a lounge chair on the patio off the kitchen, gazing up at a starless sky and listening to crickets chirping in the woods behind the house, when Erik came out and eased into a chair next to her. He crossed one leg over the other, and leaned his head back.

  There was no moon to light the night and the lights in the kitchen were turned down low. A slight breeze cooled the night air as they sat quietly. She was happy he couldn’t see her because she hadn’t changed her shirt. The coolness of the cloth against her skin reminded her of the charged, two-sentence conversation the wet shirt had sparked.

  His breathing filled the air around her, causing tension to build. Michelle knew she should say something, anything to break the silence, yet she waited for him to start. She’d come out here to escape a run-in with him and collect her thoughts before going upstairs to work on her book.

  She supposed he had sought her out because he had something to say. The only time they really talked was at the dinner table, or when they had to discuss Precious’ schedule, including her activities, which had been cut to two—ballet and swimming.

  Usually, after tucking Precious into bed, he’d escape to his study and she would open up her laptop. Writing had become a pleasurable escape for her to keep her mind off him. She was sure it was because she was writing about the kids at the youth center, kids she loved and could relate to. She missed them, and turning their experiences into a book made her feel closer to them, like Jo in Little Women, writing about her and her sisters’ lives.

  All the proceeds from her book, when and if she sold it, would go to the center. Since she’d left Manchester, she called the center every day, just to check in with Rose, one of the women who helped out. She wanted to make sure all the kids were okay, that none of them needed anything. She wanted so badly to go see them, but she couldn’t leave Precious alone and she didn’t dare take her back to ‘that kind of neighborhood’ again.

  “What was it like growing up without a mother?”

  His voice, and the surprising question, startled Michelle. She’d anticipated that when he finally said something, it would be about his daughter or the twins he delivered today. She didn’t expect it would be personal. He hadn’t asked her anything personal since her first morning on the job.

  She wriggled around on the lounge chair and cleared her throat, giving herself time to think about her reply. At least he didn’t ask about life with her father. He’d asked about life without her mother. That she could be truthful about. “Empty, I guess, and a bit lonely and sad.”

  “What did you miss most? I’m asking so I’ll know how to make up for Precious’ loss. I hope you don’t mind sharing that part of your life with me.”

  Michelle sighed deeply. “Well, she died when I was born, so I can’t say I missed her, since I never had her. I think what I missed was the idea of having a mother. Knowing her touch, her voice, her smell, her laugh.” Her voice cracked, and she sniffled, remembering the wonderful things Robert had told her about their mother. He’d tried to describe her laugh, her touch, her voice to her, and at those moments, Michelle would close her eyes and just imagine. “I never had those things,” she continued, “but my brother tried to bring her to life for me by telling me about her. So, if I had suddenly lost my mother, like Precious lost hers, those are the things I would miss most.”

  “But you had your father. He must have compensated in some big way.”

  Michelle wanted to laugh even though her heart was heavy. Yeah, her father did compensate, but not in the way Erik thought. She turned to his huge shadow, silhouetted against the darkness. “My father wasn’t there for me, Erik. He was too busy feeling sorry for himself after my mother died. He forgot about the two little children who needed him.”

  “That’s why you got so angry with me for neglecting Precious.”

  “I know how she feels,” Michelle stated softly. “The agony of losing one parent is bad enough, but when you have one who just ignores you—now, that’s a killer. Soon you stop trusting or believing in anybody and you just lock yourself away inside you where it’s safe.”

  “Is that what happened to you, Michelle? You stopped trusting?” His voice was gentle, probing.

  Michelle uttered a dry laugh and wrapped her arms around her stomach. She wished she’d stopped trusting, believing. If she had, she would not be sitting on Erik LaCrosse’s patio. She would be in Manchester, living the life she’d planned for herself, not the one someone else’s destructive behavior had forced on her, but then again, she would not have met Erik.

  “No.” She shook her head. “I’m the anomaly, Erik. I’m always looking for the good in folks, hoping for the best, but I keep getting hurt. That’s why I volunteer at the youth center. I know how those kids feel.”

  He leaned forward. Closer. “Who hurt you, Michelle?” His voice was low, husky.

  Stirred by the tenderness in his voice, Michelle opened her mouth to lay her heart at his feet, but the fragile moment was broken by the sound of the phone ringing in the kitchen.

  He swore softly as he got up to answer it. “Don’t go anywhere. I’ll be right back.”

  Michelle’s heart hammered as she watched him walk into the kitchen and turn on the light. He left the sliders open, so she heard him say, “Hello,” then chuckle at the response on the other line. But when he said, “Of course not, Bridget. I’m never too busy for you,” a wave of jealousy ripped through Michelle.

  Who the heck was Bridget? He had asked her if there was a man in her life—a legitimate question since the former nanny had married and left his daughter high and dry. It wasn’t her place to question him about any relationship with a woman. Even though he came home for dinner every evening, and locked himself away in his study every night, she’d suspected he might have someone to turn to in his hour of masculine need. She’d assumed he kept them away from the house so as not to confuse his daughter who still wasn’t over the death of her mother.

  Men needed sex to survive. She’d heard that constantly from the few she’d dated over the years. She’d never felt compelled to give them any, so they’d quietly and solemnly faded away. She’d tried so hard not to think of Erik with another woman, especially since she knew what it was like to be in his arms, to kiss him, feel his hot hard body pressed up against hers. As long as she didn’t see him with a woman, or hear him talk of one, she’d told herself that he didn’t have one. There was no denying it anymore. He had Bridget.

  Michelle got to her feet and studied the grin on his face as he leaned against the sink with the receiver clipped to his ear. She wished there was another way into the house without going past him, but since the other entrances were locked, she took a deep breath, walked briskly through the sliding doors, and tried to make a dash from the kitchen.

  “Hold on a minute, Bridge,” he said as she reached the island. “Michelle.” />
  Michelle grabbed the cool marble and turned her head. His hand was over the mouthpiece. She stared at him, forcing a stiff smile. The last thing she wanted was for him to know she was jealous of some other female. “I’m tired. I’m going to bed, Erik,” she said calmly.

  “I said I wouldn’t be long.” He came over to her.

  “You shouldn’t keep Bridget waiting.”

  His eyebrows puckered. “She’s just a friend. A colleague. We work together.”

  Now why did he think he had to explain himself? Erik wondered, as he gazed into Michelle’s tantalizing black eyes. He was getting to know her a minute ago. He’d heard the ache hanging on the edge of her voice when she’d talked about her mother. He’d welcomed the sweet scent of Moonlight rising from her body.

  As he’d sat quietly with her in the dark, he’d been thinking about that first night and the kiss they’d shared, and her hard nipples poking from beneath her wet T-shirt when she’d come down to get him earlier. He’d fought the urge to take her into his arms, kiss her again and again, feel her melt into him, tremble at his touch, moan with want for him.

  After tucking Precious in, he’d gone back to his study, hoping to squelch his desires in the journal he’d been reading earlier. But after reading the same paragraph several times and having no idea what it said, he’d given up. He’d gone to the kitchen for a glass of water when he spotted her on the patio through the sliders. She looked lost in her own world, just sitting there staring into the dark night. His head had told him he should just leave her be and not play with fire. But his heart wanted to be close to her.

  He’d been on the very verge of insanity when he’d joined her. That’s why he’d brought up the subject of her mother. He needed something far removed from the carnal need rampaging inside him. And now, here he was explaining a simple phone call.

  “You don’t have to explain anything to me, Erik. I’m just the babysitter. She walked stoically into the dining room.

  Erik stared at her until she disappeared from sight. He didn’t even know what the heck was going on in his house.

  It was just one big bag of confusion. Maybe he should just bed the girl and get it over with. They were two consenting adults who wanted each other. That was as plain as daybreak. So why were they pussyfooting around the inevitable?

  “Erik. Erik. Are you still there?”

  He removed his hand from the mouthpiece. “Yes, Bridget. I’m still here.”

  “Goodness, I thought I lost you for a moment.”

  You did.

  “As I was saying, have you given any more thought to my suggestion about the upcoming gala in Boston?”

  “You mean the one where you want to be my date?”

  She laughed. “Yes, that one. We’re both unattached, so I don’t see why we can’t go as a couple. We can spend the night.”

  Erik ruffled his lips, ruefully. Now here was a woman in his own league and social class openly offering herself to him on a silver platter. One night of sex with Bridget would probably take care of his need—no strings attached, at least for him.

  But he knew it wouldn’t be enough. Sex for him was something special, only to be shared between two people who really cared about each other. He knew Bridget was in love with him, but he didn’t think about her in that way. It would be wrong to toy with her heart.

  It has been two plus years since he’d touched a woman’s body for the purpose of pleasure. And the only one he wanted to pleasure was the woman upstairs in his guest bedroom.

  “Precious has a new nanny now,” Bridget argued her point. “So you can’t use that as an excuse anymore.”

  He groaned. If she only knew that the new nanny wasn’t an older Bengay-scented matriarch, as he’d requested, but a young, alluring, Moonlight-scented temptress who was driving him out of his mind, she’d probably want to move into his house to fight the competition—when there wasn’t really one. “Oh, Bridge, I might bore you to tears.”

  She found that amusing. “Like you could.”

  It would bore him. He rotated his neck, rubbing the back and sides to ease the tension in his muscles. “I have to go, Bridget,” he said abruptly. He needed an ice-cold shower to ease the tension in his groin.

  “Do you promise to think about staying the night in Boston?”

  She was a brilliant doctor, and he enjoyed working with her. She was also a good friend who had helped him through the first few months after Cassie died, but that was as far as it went for him. He had to find a way to stop her shameless advances once and for all, but not right now. Michelle was the only woman on his mind tonight, and since he couldn’t have her in reality, he’d have to take her in his fantasy.

  “Okay, Bridget. I’ll think about it,” he said to get her off the phone.

  “Excellent. Good night, Erik.”

  “Good night, Bridget.”

  Erik began unbuttoning his shirt as he climbed the stairs.

  ***

  Michelle parked the Jaguar on the far end of the lot, away from heavy traffic, and walked the short distance to the old building that currently served as a youth center in downtown Manchester. She’d seen the skepticism in Erik’s eyes when he had handed her the keys, weeks ago. He was like all men. Their cars were their babies.

  What she would really like to be driving was that red Porsche in his garage. But without having to be told, Michelle knew that car was off limits. That belonged to his dead wife.

  “Michelle!” A mob of children flocked her the minute she hit the door. They’d been expecting her.

  “Hi, guys.” She dropped two shopping bags on a table near the door. “Uh-uh,” she cautioned as they made a dash for the bags of goodies. “Those are for later.”

  “Oh…” they uttered in disappointment.

  She smiled. It was so good to see them again after three weeks. She had some free time today because Erik and Precious were at an elite annual father-daughter function at the Conference Center across town. They would be dining at some fancy restaurant and would be out for the rest of the night, which would give her time to visit her brother in Cambridge once she left the center.

  Precious had been so excited as Michelle had helped her into in a pretty little blue dress with ruffles and satin bows—a dress Michelle had helped her pick from the dozens that had been delivered from an exclusive children’s store in Boston. It had cost hundreds of dollars. That was the LaCrosse’s world.

  As Michelle gazed at the children before her, she wondered when was the last time one of them saw a movie or ate out, or if they’d ever wear an outfit that somebody else hadn’t worn before.

  These kids were poverty-stricken and in need of a lot of things. Most of them hadn’t seen their deadbeat fathers in years. Three hundred dollars would buy them a lot of necessities—like warm coats, shoes that fit, school supplies—things that people like Dr. LaCrosse took for granted. This was her world.

  “I made you something, Michelle.” A little ten year-old boy with new braces pushed ahead of the crowd and held up a yellow paper bracelet.

  “Thanks, Malcolm.” Michelle took the bracelet and read the inscription. I’ll love you forever. Malcolm. It was decorated with little red hearts. She slipped it on her wrist and gave him a gentle hug.

  “I made it in Sunday School yesterday. I told the teacher that it was for the most beautiful woman in the world, and she asked if that was her. I told her no way. This is for Michelle.”

  “Ha, ha, ha,” the other children roared. “Malcolm has a crush on Michelle,” they sang in unison.

  Michelle smiled at Malcolm, happy she’d talked Robert into giving him free braces. She wished she had the money to do a lot of things for all of them, for just like her, they had dreams. But right now, she was just as destitute as all of them. One day, she’d change their worlds.

  Malcolm wanted to be a dentist like Robert. Twelve-year-old Angela wanted to be an astronaut. Nine year-old Clive, who was scarred from burns he suffered in a fire three years ago,
wanted to be a firefighter like the brave one who saved his life.

  There were about fifty kids who frequented the center on a regular, after-school basis while their parents and guardians worked. The center was also opened in the summer for parents who could not afford a sitter for the littler ones.

  They all had their own little tales of hardship and neglect, and they had their dreams—dreams Michelle encouraged them to talk about so they wouldn’t forget them. These were the stories she wanted the world to hear. These were The Littlest Dreamers she wrote about.

  She clapped her hands to silence them. “Did you do your homework?” she asked of those who were in summer school.

  “No. Yes. Almost.”

  “I need help with my apostrophe worksheet,” Clive said.

  “I came in just in time, didn’t I?”

  Michelle turned as a teenage girl burst through the door. “Hey, Amanda.”

  “Hey, Michelle. Sorry I’m late, but I had to stop at the bank and drop off a deposit for my boss.”

  Michelle smiled at the young girl. She was one of the volunteers who came into the center to help out the kids. As a matter of fact, she was a graduate of the center. Michelle had helped her out with her essays during her senior high school years. Amanda was giving back to the community. That’s the way life should be—give and take.

  Back when she did have a job, Michelle used her own money to pay for tutors when funds were low. She didn’t mind spending her money as long as the kids were learning something. Since their parents were too busy, too lazy, or too negligent to help develop their curious little minds, Michelle had assumed the responsibility.

  “Okay, guys, Amanda is here, so get cracking. Later we’ll have some snacks.”

  They scrambled around the long table in the room while Amanda began giving them instructions.

  Michelle headed for the office where Rose, a seventh-grade science teacher and co-founder of the youth center, waited for her.